That's enough for now...

Christmas was a good one :-)

Christmas dinner was nice (thankyou Aldi), pork and turkey breast this year, no brussels but leafy green cabbage and cauli (lovely), crispy potatoes and stuffing and a gorgeous chocolate cake for pudding. I was joined by my youngest daughter and her boyfriend and in the evening I went to my friend (who is also single) and we played Risk with her young daughter and ate sausage rolls and drank tea. We also watched Call the Midwife, which we love, working for midwifery services as we do.

My oldest daughter is staying here for a few days, which is brilliant and it's so nice to have a tea drinking companion. We have had a total duvet day today, watching movies and just being together. We have picked and nibbled and taken turns in the tea making and tomorrow we are going for a mooch down the town.

Having sort help for my depression, I am told by the mental health team that they cannot offer me any counselling sessions at this time, but that some may become available in the new year, so I remain hopeful that something will come along soon.

Generally I am feeling quite cheerful although I am in constant pain with my hip. Again I am waiting for physiotherapy from Medway, it could quite literally be months. I have a trapped nerve behind a slight dislocation so I have constant sciatica and some weakness in the whole leg. (I sound like my mother going on about my ailments) I am going to start swimming again as I think this will give me some relief.

I cannot wait until spring and for my growing season to begin again. I learned a lot from last years efforts and know exactly what I shall be planting this year, but after the strong winds and torrential rain of recent weeks, I have some serious tidying to do but it will all get done in good time.

No sign from D, no merry Christmas and I guess no Birthday wishes will come either. I am not as sad as I was, I am reaching acceptance and I know it's the best thing for me.

One foot in front of the other and one day at a time...that is the way to go. No thoughts of dating, just home, work, kids and trying to save money...that is enough for now.